Giving in to Doubt

At long last, the doubt that continued to creep in took over and won the battle despite the strong objections from the rest of my positive energy.
I thought doubt could be destroyed, but when it is this strong I guess there is no walking away from it. Instead, I had to walk away from the joy in my life - The one thing I did not want to walk away from. Though the weight of the incredible positive feelings far exceeds the doubt majority of the time, I believe that the doubt is much too overpowering and conniving to mess with. But now the regret of having doubt is a struggle and the ever infamous question of "What if?" will continue to haunt me for years.
I wish this doubt wasn't so strong and I'm sure it would have diminished later on, but for some reason I wanted to give into the negative at this point in time. I don't think it is a wise decision and I truly believe I will regret it, but I can't quite remove this doubt from my mind.
I want the doubt to leave and never return because I wish to return to what it is that brings me the most joy.